Written by 2 Years Later
Today it has been exactly 2 years since she left. I last saw her in that gym. Her smile… it was like the moon on a silver night. But one day, suddenly, she stopped coming to the gym. It felt like I also stopped smiling that day. It felt like someone left… never to return. Today I am writing this diary in her memories.
2 Years Ago
One day I saw her for the first time. It felt like time had stopped. I just kept looking at her, and the dumbbell fell straight on my foot because I didn’t even realize I was holding it. She didn’t notice me.
Waiting in the Gym
I used to go to the gym just for timepass. But after I saw her, I started going daily. One day she didn’t come, and I stayed in the gym the whole day waiting for her. My madness kept increasing. I started liking her more than I ever thought I would.
The First Time She Noticed Me
The next day she came. When I saw her, it felt like there was no life in my body. I was happy, weak, and I don’t know what all started happening inside me. I still can’t explain what I felt that day. That day she noticed me for the first time, that I also come to the gym. But she didn’t know… I only came there because of her.
That Black Dress
That day she was wearing a black dress. She looked beautiful. Her open hair… I couldn’t take my eyes off her. I don’t stare at people, but I just couldn’t control myself.
The Powerbank Moment
The next day she came again. My heartbeat became fast. I tried to ignore her because I didn’t want her to know how much I liked her.
But she walked straight towards me and asked, “Do you have a powerbank? My phone is off.” That day I had brought a powerbank for the first time. My own phone was switched off, but she needed it, so I gave it to her. Since that day, I never let anyone else even touch that powerbank.
Changing Myself for Her
I couldn’t even lift dumbbells properly, and she used to lift heavy weights. I felt ashamed of myself. Then one day she told me, “Do it like this, you’ll be able to do it.” I didn’t know what to say. I was shocked. Then I started trying, and slowly I was able to do it too. I used to go there just to see her… now I actually started working out.
The Social Media Shock
Then one day I was scrolling social media and saw her in one of my friend’s following list. That was the biggest shock for me, because that friend never wanted good for me. It felt like the story ended before it even started.
Coffee That Day
Still, I asked her, “Do you know her?” She said, “Yes, she is my friend.” I also asked that friend and lied, saying I was just asking casually.
Then I asked her, “Tea or juice?” We went to have coffee, but no shop had coffee. I felt like my luck was really bad that day. From her face it felt like she already knew. Still, I ordered coffee online.
We had coffee together. Then she went home, and I kept thinking about her the whole way.
Blocked
That night I messaged my friend and asked about her. She said no. But after that, I got blocked from the girl’s ID. I thought maybe it was someone else.
The next day… she didn’t come to the gym.
Unanswered
What was it that she couldn’t tell me? Or did she find out something… that we never even were?
Rainy Day
Do clouds rain… or do they cry? Maybe they cry. That’s why sometimes there is a flood, and sometimes everything stays dry.
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